Edmund BrianWood

I have been a recluse for years because I had to have freedom to pursue my quest for knowing what this existence is, and it had to be free from the influences of society, which due to my knowledge of history and philosophy, I could see to be hopelessly obscuring of the truth. Divine guidance was within me and was all that was needed, and that needed to be undisturbed. I have abandoned my beliefs and restarted from scratch, as everyone else's philosophy is built upon their societal indoctrinations and you cannot trust which bits are true.

When I started I noticed that when I gained a new understanding, there was a memory of already knowing it from my early childhood. I discovered that greater age does not produce greater understanding of the core philosophical nature of your self. It is the same all the way through. I realized that it was the memories from before social influence that were the access to the true me, and that everything else was just the story of my reaction to the society which I had been buffeted by.

By believing that the answers were within me and that the earliest memories were the purest, I opened the door to the revelations that would follow, and they poured through that portal of abandonment. I have tried to live a natural life without influence from society — a modern day monk. To let nature guide me, by me doing what nature guides me to do. Whatever results is a less affected nature of man. Being a pure man without the society influences. To try and be nature itself.

My understanding is first hand and from first principles and so could be called divinely revealed, and is not just a repeating of someone else's words or the following of someone else's method. My experiences would classify me as a mystic — which I recognise in others accounts — but I do not subscribe to the old interpretations because the litany is just the mouthings of other people's words, and there are now better ways of understanding how it works.

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I have read the religious texts and I have read the science, and have both of those frameworks within which to construct my language of what this reality is. But my understanding doesn't come from either of these sources, it comes from a direct access to the preternatural core of being, where it is realised that there is no other source of true knowledge. Everyone has access to this source but it does not sit easily within normal society, and to roam freely in pursuance of this truth, it needs to be free from the constraints that are imposed by indoctrinated systems.

Removing influences and interferences is essential in pursuing a path of purity, to knowing first hand and being guided to the truth of yourself and your own true method. Of course, purity is of no concern to the divine as it has no judgements or polarising morals like society does. Purity isn't a prerequisite for entry into that blissful state of abandonment and liberation, but it is the inevitable result while being there. Recognising our true desires which are produced by the unsoiled natural mechanism, and following them, is the true path to our destiny. It is the greatest way, the way of the magus.

If you work upon something for hours every day, for many years, developing it without interruption or interference,  something very special emerges. It is unique and has never been done before, because the very way of it is from a pure individuality of nature.

I do not follow other esoterical sources as I do not wish to be polluted by them. They are not pure; they are all promulgated by disciples copying someone else's words. Anyone who follows someone else does not have self-realisation.

But there is no automatic conversion from self-realisation to success within society. The communication of it may be impossible and the outside view of it opaque and non-revelatory. The divine and society can be opposites of one another, with neither being able to penetrate the other.

Who I am, is to define myself relative to others which focuses on the different influences and experiences I have had, and the concepts that have formed from these experiences. It is those aspects of ourselves which have the greatest difference which define us the most and identify us the best. This is the individuality, and the value of that individuality lies in the difference which can be brought to benefit the rest of mankind. This is my exposition.

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